Showing posts with label First time. Show all posts
Showing posts with label First time. Show all posts

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Yeah Write Garblebuster: First Everythings


Those

frequently fleeting,

unmistakable,

“I knew exactly when you existed.”

moments

of

tentative glances,

shy smiles,

lips about to touch

firsts

awakening,

or often jolting,

one,

or five,

of your senses;

the wishing

you could bottle it,

and,

the wondering

what if?

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42 words answering the question:

Have all your clocks stopped?

from Alice Munro's short story A Real Life

Monday, July 16, 2012

A Lesson In Kissing

His name was Micah. I always loved that name because it was so different.

And so was he from me.

We grew up in the same Chicago suburb which was rather large but neighborhoods were small. The kids you’d run into on the street were the ones you’d likely run into the next day, if you really wanted to, because 6 blocks isn’t far away, especially not on a bike. And that’s how four 15 year old girls, heading into sophomore year, met a large group of 16 year old boys from another high school.

The boys went to Timothy Christian, a Christian Reform school, in our neighborhood. The families generally kept to themselves so even though we lived within close range, our paths never crossed since we went to different grade schools. Growing up, I truly believed we were considered "taboo" to the TC kids.

Well, there’s no way to stop teenage boys and girls from meeting when they have their minds set on this. Straddling our bikes on a street corner, we talked. Cops would come by and kindly ask us to scatter. So we’d move to a different one.

One sure thing was the girls longed to kiss the boys and so did they. I’m not certain which side was more inexperienced; us or them.

Being late bloomers, the girls had heard plenty of stories about kissing. Experienced girls warned us that some boys kissed like Hoover vacuums and others so sloppy they didn’t know what to do with all the spit. None of this sounded appealing however, one by one, my girlfriends began to pop their kissing cherries.

Micah and I were still just talking but knew deep down we’d do this together. Everyone’s ready at different times.

In the fall and back to our respective high schools, weekends remained the same. The group got together because the other girls were “hooked up”.

It was just before Halloween when we gathered in George’s garage; his parents allowed boy/girl get togethers, and Micah asked if I wanted to go inside. Before we’d only been alone rather by default. This time, he was asking me to be ALONE.

Liking him, a lot, I went. Sitting closer than I ever had to a boy on a couch, he asked what I’d like to do. Having only one thing on my mind, I blurted, “Let’s make out.” Instantaneously, his lips pressed softly against mine; his breath smelled so sweet. Kissing for what seemed like an hour, he suddenly asked, “Can we French kiss?”

I was so far into the moment to say anything other than “OK”.

It was the first “real” kiss either of us experienced. I was 15 and he, 16. And it was completely opposite of hoover-like or sloppy with spit.

It was one of the sweetest, most gently intense feelings I have ever experienced in my life.

To this day, I credit Micah for my immense love of kissing someone special.


Friday, March 23, 2012

For The First Time

By Carly Simon
Thought I would add a link to this song because it was in my mind when I wrote the post below.
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I can tell by the way you’re looking at me and I’m scared…so scared. It's so obvious what’s on your mind right this very minute. It’s been on your mind for over a month.

Your words tell me that we’ll do this together; that it’ll be the perfect night and you’ll take care of everything. We should be the ones. You’ve even picked out a spot?

I DON’T KNOW.

This is way too much pressure.

I love you; you know that. I want you to be happy with me and you tell me it won’t matter what I decide to do.  If we go through with this, what comes next?  

We are sooooo young! Don’t you think so too?

I mouth “thank you” when you tell me, in front of my friends, that I look pretty. You’ve never been one to hand out the compliments so readily. Thinking about my dress makes me all the more nervous.  Why did I choose white? I feel stupid and obvious.

How will I make it past this night because my mind is so occupied right now? My only choice is to go through the motions. You ask me to just smile and dance with you.

No, I’m not hungry or mad. I’m just thinking.

You do look so incredibly handsome and you’re being so nice. We usually fight at dances, at least the last three. I can smell your cologne; you always wear Polo because you say it makes me kiss you. 

Please don’t run down the list again. I know who have…Tim and Leslie, Maggie and Bill, Bee and Tembo. It’s driving me crazy. I feel like there’s a giant weight pressing down extremely hard on my heart and my head. I’m getting a headache when we’re supposed to be dancing and laughing and having the time of our lives. We graduate next week!

How about we wait until graduation night? Of course, I know what you’ll say. “We’re not going to feel like it then. We’ll be with all of our friends.” I’m desperately trying to postpone this, something. Aren’t we too young?

Thank you for taking my hand as we walk away from the group towards the parking lot. Where ARE we going? The park? I know what spot you’re talking about now. I can’t believe you put a blanket in your trunk.

My eyes are closely watching your every move as you snap out the blanket and lay it out.  I’m shaking as you approach me. My eyes automatically fill with tears as you hug me tighter than you ever have and whisper what I need to hear.

I feel like I’m slipping. 
Slipping down a steep slope that will change me forever.  
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Genesis, 1978

Hope comes in a jar. It floats. We wrote about hope in our memoirs this week, now let’s take it in a different direction. According to Dante, the gates of hell are inscribed “Abandon all hope, ye who enter here.”
Let that inscription lead, but not necessarily define, your piece for Friday’s link-up.
500 words or less.

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Well I did it!

Today is the Beginning...Of What?

Today is the first day my boredom ends! What should I do??? Start blogging? I have wanted to blog forever but didn't know how, if or  when to start. Today seemed like the day and I'm not sure why!

Two things happened recently that jogged it all into place. I ran into this computer science professor working in the gift department at Neiman Marcus. Jen and I were looking at journals for her. He overheard me saying I loved to write, journaled in bullets and wanted to blog but no one but me would be interested in what I had to say. Jen said she would be but knows I would write a whole lot of butt facts! The gentleman told me "just do it". Then last night I watched one of my all time favorite shows while wrapping Christmas presents, SATC. I have always loved the fact that Carrie just wrote whatever came into her mind.

I have a lot of stuff, real and BS, running through this head but the question is...I think I have a lot to say but will anyone else? I really wanted to title this blog, "Does Anyone Really Care What I Have to Say?" (that's the title I gave the prof at NM). Maybe I actually did call it that but I can't remember. That was five screens ago.

Penelope Trunk says to just start writing which is what I'm doing and I am going to practice everyday. I promise myself that I will write something everyday whether it's bullets or paragraphs. I can usually amuse myself and my goal is to, someday, amuse someone who reads my blog!