I swear she was placed in the
changing room of the MRI department to taunt me. I didn’t even have to
rearrange the magazines to see her. She was just there... perfectly airbrushed, beautiful curves and
all!
Build Lean Muscle- Had them
and want them back!
Sculpt Sexy Curves- Love them
and always a goal!
Yes, indeed! I’ve been
complaining, A LOT, about not being able to move, exercise, burn off steam, and
everything that’s awesome and true about intense exercise. It helps me
tremendously but particularly with my attitude and state of mind. It chills me
out and when those endorphins kick in, I’m the happiest girl in the world. Just ask my family!
If you’ve been reading here
since I started or even a month ago, you know I tend to talk about exercise
more than a little bit. I love it! I love activity of any kind; bike riding, boxing, running, cross training, swimming. I love rope workouts. I love doing
it with my friends. I love the sense of accomplishment; being hot and sweaty
from it’s intensity. But mostly, I love what it has given my body and my mind…a
very healthy, fit look and loads of clarity.
I MISS IT!
And now SHE turns up to remind me
of what I can’t do. Again, I’m not complaining but I'm certainly whining just short of pitching a fit. I
want that part of my life back. My old life! And as Veruca Salt from “Willy
Wonka and The Chocolate Factory” says, “I want it NOW!!!”
Here’s my biggest question.
It is rhetorical! I know the answer but I’m refusing to let it make sense at
the moment.
How can you go from being in
arguably the best physical shape in recent memory, working out hard since the beginning
of December, to completely out of shape in a mere three weeks? Something is definitely
wrong with this equation.
Don’t get me wrong. I am not
saying I was the skinniest I’ve ever been, because I wasn’t. I was very healthy and very fit. I was embracing my curves and my muscle tone. I was feeling great and
clothes were slipping on smoothly. I worked hard for that!
Now, I just feel scrawny. I’m
not a small person in stature but I feel little, or littler, physically and mentally. Pants are falling
off of me and not in a “Hey, I look good” or “You can never be too skinny or
rich”, kind of way. It doesn’t look healthy at all and I don’t like it one bit.
Seeing that magazine this
afternoon reminded me of what I already knew. It’s about being healthy, strong
and sturdy, and I can be that way again, just not today.
Tomorrow, I can begin to
change that. Why? Because I love strength. I'm very attracted to it physically, mentally and emotionally; in myself and in others.
So, I’m going to walk down the road and hand deliver a thank you note for starters. I’m thinking there’s nothing wrong with holding some straight armed planks and doing push ups if my shoulder can handle it. I can throw in some stationary lunges if I’m feeling chipper. And that's how I’ll start building my strength back, beginning tomorrow.
So, I’m going to walk down the road and hand deliver a thank you note for starters. I’m thinking there’s nothing wrong with holding some straight armed planks and doing push ups if my shoulder can handle it. I can throw in some stationary lunges if I’m feeling chipper. And that's how I’ll start building my strength back, beginning tomorrow.
And yes, I did lift the
magazine from the waiting room table. I have to go back for results at the end
of the week, so I’ll have the opportunity to return it!
But first I want to learn how
to “Be Happier Every Day”, “Flat Belly Secrets” and “Healthy, Yummy Bikini
Friendly Ideas”.
Right now, I’ve had as much
of this day as I can handle. I’m placing Brooklyn Decker on the pillow next to
me and we are going to take a nap together. In a platonic way, of course ;-)