Mama
Kat’s Writing Prompt:
1.) Share something your child taught YOU about parenting.
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So
for the gazillionith time I will tell you that my kids, 19 and 21 years of age,
are very different from each other. Day and Night. Black and White. Yin and
Yang but not necessarily complementary, etc., etc., etc…….
I
have learned so much from each of them and, of course, completely opposite and
different things.
Today,
I’d like to share something that Matt taught me.
He’s
my gregarious and compassionate one. Also bright, charming, and affectionate
with a hug for everyone. He’s my fly-by-the-seat-of–his-pants kid who lives in
the moment and never looks before he leaps. His laugh is infectious. He doesn’t hold grudges and he’s
present. Matt is passionate about life and has the capacity to love very
deeply; it’s just in him.
Now,
I’m telling you all of his strengths but with this child, the highs are oh-so
high and the lows are crab-appleness at it’s finest. Quite often he’s a totally
pain in the ass. And far from perfect but I wouldn’t (well maybe) change a
thing about him because those great times are equivalent to a freshly minted bar
of shiny gold or a beautiful rainbow. You just might have to put up with some stuff to reap these rewards sometimes.
One
of our favorite family movies is Groundhog Day. You know, the one starring
Bill Murray and Andie MacDowell. Somehow, we regularly fall into it on the tube
without even looking. Happiest to catch it at the beginning, we’ll sit down to
watch it at any point. Someone will yell, “Hurry! Groundhog Day is on!” and we
cuddle up on the couches to watch. And of course, there’s a big fight as to who
gets the big comfy chair (that person gets the dog!).
“On February 2,
1992, Phil, Rita, and Larry are sent on an assignment that Phil especially
loathes: the annual Groundhog Day festivities in Punxsutawney, PA, where the
citizens await the appearance of Punxsutawney Phil, the groundhog who will
supposedly determine the length of winter by his ability to see his own shadow.
Phil is eager to beat a hasty retreat, but when a freak snowstorm strands him
in Punxsutawney, he wakes up the next morning with the strangest sense of déjà
vu: he seems to be living the same day over again. The next morning it happens again,
and then again. Soon, no matter what he does, he's stuck in February 2, 1992;
not imprisonment nor attempted suicide nor kidnapping the groundhog gets him
out of the loop. But the more Phil relives the same day, the more he's forced
to look at other people's lives, and something unusual happens: he begins to
care about others. He starts to respect people, he tries to save the life of a
homeless man, and he discovers that he's falling in love with Rita and
therefore wants to be someone that she could love in return.”
As
a parent, don’t you sometimes feel you are reliving the exact same day over and
over and over again?
So
what is it Matt taught me about parenting?
This
boy, now a man, taught me to start each day fresh as if it were a clean slate.
This child always woke with a smile from the time he was an infant, ready to
begin his day with enthusiasm (except for some of those teen years).
Don’t wake up mad at anybody (my kids or husband or friends or parents). Choose to begin the day, again and
again and again, happy. There is always a new adventure, whether big or small, waiting for me.
So
on days when, as a young mom of toddlers then teens (and even now), I woke up grumpy or wanted
to stay pissy forever, I would see his gorgeous blue eyes and beautiful face
and remember.
Today
is a clean slate.
Dump
the baggage from yesterday.
Be present so you don't miss the moments.
Smile
big and bright.
Living
with him has been like Groundhog Day, the movie. While many days may seem
mundane and repetitive (doesn’t everyone feel this way sometimes?), it’s up to
us to find and make new moments for ourselves each and every day. And make a
choice to start it fresh.
I
try to leave my bed in the morning with a smile in my mind and often think
of him doing the same (although, I’m sure he’s smiling much later being a
college student). It doesn’t always work but I try.
