I had no idea until five minutes ago that I would be participating in Jana’s Sunday Stream of Consciousness (five minutes of writing, unedited, published wherever the heck you want). And this is her optional prompt:
What
have you fallen out of the habit of doing (or not doing)?
This is an easy one. Unfortunately.
I have fallen off the “writing” wagon.
It happened somewhere around February, I think. I have reasons. Several of them. Some will say one of them is lame. It probably is and I’m sorry about that but I can’t help it.
I’m lacking motivation, maybe inspiration, possibly desire. Not sure yet.
It happened somewhere around February, I think. I have reasons. Several of them. Some will say one of them is lame. It probably is and I’m sorry about that but I can’t help it.
I’m lacking motivation, maybe inspiration, possibly desire. Not sure yet.
I understand that writing takes practice and I’m
out of practice and each day this continues my desire wanes. Almost to the
point that I’m no longer caring.
Who am I kidding? Words have been elusive.
I am also trying to wean myself too. From the
computer. From a chair in a study that faces in the complete opposite direction
as a window with a lovely view.
I want the view!
I want to say “yes” every time someone I like asks
me to spend time with them. I want to pick up every time my cell phone rings
(okay, I will continue to screen my calls but I will be more available because
only friends have that number) and talk to the person on the other end that was
thinking of me enough to call. I want to call the person that I was just about
to text (I’ve actually been doing this much more in the last few months.) I
want to be present in moments without thinking first that those moments might
make great stories to write about the following day.
Maybe I just don’t manage my time well enough but…
I want the view!
I love that thought Gina. Not only taking in the view -- but being fully present. Enjoy.
ReplyDeleteMy computer's been acting really crappy so I had to put it in the shop for almost two weeks.
ReplyDeleteI have to say, just stepping out of my box and doing "other things" turned out to be a positive thing.
Changing my view was a good for me. I'm up and running again even if my computers function still sucks.
It's ebb and flow. I feel sure you'll be back at it, but now just isn't the time, and that's fine! Sometimes I think we need the time to recharge. And it's going to be harder and harder to write during the summer. I have stopped feeling guilty, though, for whose blog I'm not visiting and for not writing tons of great quality posts. We have to live life, too!
ReplyDeleteI totally understand this. I'm having a lull myself. The words aren't coming as easily as they once were. I'm trying to power through it, but maybe a break to enjoy my view is in order too.
ReplyDeleteFalling off the writing wagon sucks. Thank goodness for prompts. Take your computer to the view ;-)
ReplyDeleteI agree, every once in a while (ahem, a lot lately) I choose to spend the time with the boys, napping, catching up on "Nashville" on DVR. I know the words will come back, I know that they will be there...and I know that sometimes the view makes them return.
ReplyDeleteenjoy every moment my friend.